Friday, August 17, 2007
Sunday, July 22, 2007
-I broke up with LT. It was really strange, because he really was a good guy. It's just that things sort of fell flat for me. I wasn't physically attracted to him anymore. I mean, he was nice on the eyes, don't get me wrong, but when it came for.... more physical things.... eeeh. I didn't even want him to kiss me.
-SS is back in town for good. He got a job here. We fight a lot. I think our friendship may not work out at all. It's sad, but a lot of times he is more stress than anything else for me.
-I got a new job. It's good+good pay. I am a little frustrated though, because the position that I interviewed for was a really good job that I was very qualified for. Starting salary was 40k a year. Well when they called me back to hire me, they told me that they wanted to hire me for another position that stared at 29.5k a year, bc they decided to hire internally for the one that i interviewed for. So I get there for orientation, and the other 3 new hires are there for the 40k job that i told was being hired for internally. Grr. But the manager did tell me that it was very possible that they would move me up to that position within a few months.
-looking for a new place. The BFF and i are looking for some nice, affordable 2 bedrooms that will accept my dog. I would love to find a place with a fenced in yard, but she is small enough that it is not a necessity.
I'll try to not be such a slacker on the blog anymore!!
Sunday, June 3, 2007
also, i met a boy. from match.com. we'll call him LT. He's very nice. we met for drinks on wednesday and had a really good time. he is very cute and nice. we went out again friday night, and we had a nice kiss. we'll see, but i'd say there is potential.
Also, Friday night I went out with GS and his girlfriend (the ugly one haha). Anyway, we had a good time, and then GS and I went outside to smoke while his girlfriend watched our table inside, and he tried to kiss me 3 times. and then he freaked out, made me swear to never tell his girlfriend (why the heck would I???) and then they left haha. it was totally strange. But yea, i was not ok with that. So after he left I hung out with LT.
and now, back to the stupid mtv movie awards haha.
Tuesday, May 8, 2007
So saturday night we went out, got extremely drunk, afterpartied with my gay bff til 6am, and a random, kind of scary 40 year old man named Stone wrote me a love letter. Overall, amazing times.
Oh, and another story. There is a very cute boy that works at a local establishment near my house. I won't say exactly what this establishment is, for "security, anonymity purposes." But I go there at least once a day. It's not a sketchy place or anything, haha, swear. So anyway, oddly enough, we sort of became friends. He moved here from across the country, and 6 months ago, his girlfriend moved here too. Anyway, we'll call cute boy GS. So GS and I will hang out and talk while he is at work, sometimes for at least an hour. I will go to leave, and he'll be like, "don't leave, stay and keep me company." So, he is going on a trip back to his hometown to see a band play and his girlfriend can't go because of money purposes. He has told me that she doesn't have any friends here, and maybe we could hang out so she would have a girl to be friends with. So he asked for my number so we could all hang out. He was thinking about meeting us out on saturday. Well they didnt', but he called on Sunday and chit-chatted with me for a while. Well it turns out that on his bus ride to his hometown, he'll be passing through the same city that SS lives in. he said I should go on the bus ride with him until we get to SS's city so we can keep each other company. Hmm. Well anyway, tonight when I was at his work, his girlfriend called and she gave me her myspace url. So I checked it out, and HOLY CRAP. THIS GIRL IS UGLY! Not even a little homely in a cute way, but UGLY. It's disappointed, b/c GS is so adorable and sweet. And his girlfriend is ugly, and apparently a little ghetto too. Huh. Which reminds me of that super annoying new avril levigne song, "Hey hey! You you! I know what your girlfriend looks like, no way! I think you need a new one!" haha. So I guess I have to be GS's girlfriends buddy now, and maybe do a little flirting with him to make him realize I am way cuter than his girlfriend will ever be. (semi-kidding there. hehe)
Saturday, May 5, 2007
I thought to myself, why am I bothering with SS? He doesnt know if he wants to be with me, plain and simple. He may tell me that if he were settled and knew where he was going to be in 3 months, he would have no doubts. But the truth of the matter is, he doesn't know where he is going to be, and that makes him unsure of us. And if I'm going to be completely honest with myself, I know what's going to happen. When he comes home at the end of may, he is going to go back to the way things were. He just said to me a few days ago, "I can't wait until i am done with school so I can come home and spend time with you." But after that happens, he probably is going to get a job in Arizona or California, and things are inevitably not going to work out. So why am I bothering? Sounds kind of negative, but it's true.
So back to match. I did this once before and didn't have much luck at all. I met a few cool guys, actually dated one for a very brief period of time, but nothing really important.
This should be interesting.
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
i shouldn't be doing this. but i miss you. a lot. i can't get you out of my head and it sucks. i wonder how your trip was and if you had fun, and i just miss you. i miss talking to you and laughing with you. and i keep thinking about feeling your arms around me. i really hope that you are doing ok. this is all i'm going to say now, b/c it's not so fun for me. and i really am going to stick to my guns about not calling or texting now, i know i kind of sucked at it before. but i really did try. i want to give you your space if you need it. but it's hard. i wonder if it's hard for you too. i know you are getting down to the wire with school and you are probably really busy. if you want to call or text, i'm more than happy to talk to you. but i've gotta try to stop waiting and checking. its hard. ok, i'm really sorry. i'm just having a hard time with a lot of stuff. and missing you is one of them. ok i'm shutting up now.
I'm horrible at the whole "not caring" business. I mean, he knows that I care. It's no secret. I know that he cares too. But now, I've probably ruined it. But if I act like I don't care, that I'm going on as usual and it's not bothering me, I think that he'll think that I just don't care and he should just forget about it and move on. I"m an idiot. I probably just screwed things up big time with that one instant message. Way to go, me.
Saturday, April 21, 2007
So, if you stop by, drop a comment and say hello!
I also find some of the google searches that people have found me through to be absolutely hilarious.
That's all for now. The lack of things to do this weekend have left me feeling a little down, and extra sad about the boyfriend situation.